Nice Day

Pagi2 tadi gw bgn gara2 kedinginan, klupaan nyetel AC kayanya hehehe.. Sarapan kue sponge gt teksturnya alus bgt, sbenernya enak cm gr2 kmrn pas hr Minggu uda bnyk mkn yg creamy2 jd biasa aja deh. Trus bongkar2 inventory brg2 souvenir PM bwat kirim brg sorenya, hohoho.. Mandi abis itu ngmps deh!

Nyampe kmps, mau ol tp ga internetnya eror untung ga brp lama uda bs. Hehehe, jd bs facebukan sambil nungguin tmn mau ntn :D akhirnya tmn gw dtng jg tlat gr2 mls bgn katanya, trus ngurus2 registrasi (tnyata masih bnyk yg blum registrasi gt, bahkan pas gw denger2 masih bnyk yg bingung mau ngambil apaan) minta kwitansi ke bag keuangan, mau ttd FRS cm mentornya lg ribet gt kayanya jd suruh balik lg jem 3 sore. Akhirnya qta nitip admin aja deh untung mba adminnya baek, hehehe..

Td lmyn bnyk jg ktemu anak2 yg jg ke kmps gt deh, hmm mungqn gw uda lmyn jrg ketemu mereka kali yah.. Abisnya gw itung2 hr ini gw nanya ke 4-5 org apakah mereka potong rambut ato ga, soalnya agak beda aja hehehe. Well, rambut gw jg makin panjang nih ;)

Tinggal 30 menitan menjelang filmnya mulai bo.. Hurry mode: ON. Yah, as always.. Hahahaha! Nah, pas di halte busway gt ktemu ama nenek yg (ktnya c) kesasar n minta sedekah gt. Sbenernya gw c agak cuek2 gt, cm tmn gw kayanya bersimpati gt.. Nyari2 duit di dompet dlm tas, gw liatin aja eh trus dy nanya ada duit kecil ga? Yah jd gw mau ga mau ngasih pk duit gw jd bagi 2 gt deh ama tmn gw. Entah si nenek itu jujur ato ga, gw jg ga tau c cm gw pikir ya udalah itung2 beramal.. Lgan gara2 gw liat tuh nenek entah knp gw jd teringet ama nenek di film Drag Me To Hell (yg ga gw tonton gr2 ga ada yg mau nemenin gw ntn tuh film horor!) takut aja gw disumpah2in ato dikutuk, haha imajinasi gw mank tll jauh c.

Nyampe PIM, beli tiket pas filmnya bkl dimulai 5 menit lg. Jd cari mknan yg praktis n cepet.. Wah tnyata ada tenant br, MOS Burger (tmn gw ko jeli bgt matanya yah, hehehe..) jdlah kami take away rice burger krn bmaksud utk dimkn sambil ntn aja. Hokinya, qta dpt free drink (2 pula!) pdhal gw yakin promonya ga gt krn hrsnya br dpt kalo minimum purchase 50rb n itu yg qta beli jg jelas2 bkn paket yg ada minumannya.. Munqn pelayannya masih bingung2 gt kali yah, org ktnya br bk sabtu kmrn masih soft opening ktnya. Pantes aja kaya gt, hehe lucky us! ^^

Ntn dpt posisi duduknya enak bgt bo.. Bener2 center n jarak ke dpnnya jauh jd ga ada halangan sama skali, ga kaya pas dimana tuh gw lupa deh ntn ga enak bgt abisnya dpn gw orgnya tinggi gd uda gt goyang2 mulu lg posisinya. Gw td ntn “The Proposal” lucu jg filmnya, ringan n menghibur.. Cm mank gw akui endingnya rada kurang greget!

Kluar dr XXI ktemu tmn, lg jalan jg hehehe.. Btw ada 2 hobi tmn gw yg sngt mempengaruhi acara jalan2 hr ini. Pertama, kesukaannya thdp hp yg pastinya bikin qta keliling utk liat2 ampir smua merk hp yg ada di mall.. Well, hobi ini uda dr dulu jd gw uda cukup tbiasa. Dan tnyata tmn gw mulai menggilai fotografi, jd efeknya kalo ada scene yg mnurut dy ok pasti qta akan berhenti bahkan gw hrs menunggu utk ga mkn yoghurt Jco couple dgn topping peach, moci strawberry n oreo (perfecto! ^^) gr2 mau difoto dl.. Ok, kayanya gw hrs brusaha bersabar n menerima hobi baru tmn gw nih. Apalg kalo akhirnya dy kesampean beli camera SLR, hoho..

Balik ke kmps gw ke bagian MCR, ngambil remunerasi dr project database.. Rada2 nyesek jg c, knp gw hrs sakit wkt itu? Kan kalo ga, gw dptnya lebih bnyk hehehe ;p walopun gt gw tetep ngerasa puas c soalnya bagi gw kerjaan kaya gt sama skali ga ngeberatin mnurut gw n gw makin senenk krn dpt letter apa yah namanya pokoknya dr MCR yg nyatain gw tpilih jd project officer krn menuhi kriteria yg sesuai dgn job descriptionnya n bs perform well.

Sbelum pulang, nge-drop barang bwat jualan ke PM Store skalian bagi2 bwat lebaran walopun kayanya masih lmyn lama jg yah.. Asik, uda pd tinggal dikit brgnya! Mudah2an laku bnyk n setorannya lumayan, bwat beli bk smstr 7 nih hehehe. Oya kayanya hr ini gw agak kurang beruntung berkaitan dgn yg namanya antrean deh.. Kayanya gw jg makin sadar kalo gw orgnya ga sabaran. Sbenernya hr ini gw pengen ganti keypad bwat hp gw, Lindsay (SE codename, lucu yah!) tp gr2 ngantri jd ga jd deh! Trus mau ke atm pun ngantrinya pjng bener, jd males n ga jd lg. Fiuh..

Pulang dr kampus, ngisi pulsa abisnya di PM store XL mahal bgt dah masa yg 50 harganya 58k mana voucher kertasnya bener2 kecil, terkecil yg pernah gw liat kayanya 1/10 dr voucher normal deh ukurannya. Gila kan! Mkn malem sambil ntn dvd seri trus nulis blog ini deh.. Mungqn ol bntar trus tidur deh. Hehehe, well that’s my day! :)

Way Back Into Love

(OST Music & Lyrics)
By: Hugh Grant feat. Haley Bennett

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

(In)dependence

Stiap org mank ga bs hidup sendiri.. Dan slama gw sakit kmrn, smakin ngebuat gw yakin ama hal itu. Gw ngerasa yg namanya org sakit itu susah bgt bwat ngapa2in sendiri, jd hrs bergantung ama org laen..

Gw jd ngebayangin gmn kalo gw tinggal sendiri, jauh dr keluarga gt pas lg sakit. Double pain bener2 kali yah! Uda menderita gara2 sakitnya ndiri, ditambah lg hrs ngerjain smuanya sendiri krn ga ada yg ngelayanin. Fiuh, jd serem! Hahaha, yah mudah2an sehat slalu dah :)

Dulu gw sempet mikir kalo suatu hubungan saling ketergantungan hrs ada batasnya. Gw ga pengen tll bgantung ama org laen n gw ga mau org tll bgantung ama gw. Trutama ortu gw, gw pengen ngurangin kadar ketergantungan itu.. Yah bwat persiapan aja, kalo misalnya ntar gw pergi ke t4 yg jauh n ga memungqnkan utk kembali dlm jangka waktu yg ga bentar.

Gw pribadi c ga tll khawatir ama diri gw sendiri, gw lebih concern ama bonyok gw krn semakin gw gd makin bnyk hal dimana mereka menggantungkannya ama gw. Apa2 ngandalin gw, pdhal hrsnya mereka yg ngerjain tp bnykan mereka serahin ke gw.. Tp yah mank serba salah c, kalo gw nolak diqra gw males ato ga peduli tp gw takut aja mereka tll tgantung ama gw trus ntar jdnya kaget pas akhirnya gw ga ada di sisi mereka.

Tp pas sakit kmrn gw jd mikir lg (jd bnyk mikir deh gw pokoknya!) apa ya udalah yah, mumpung gw masih bs di deket mereka gw lakuin aja apa yg bs gw lakuin utk nyenengin mereka n “manjain” mereka soalnya toh ntar kalo uda jauh, mala gw mau pun ga akan bs kan.. Dan mslh ketergantungan yah urusan ntar aja deh gmn jadinya!

Hmm, entahlah.. Gw jg ga ngerasa yakin, n mank bkn keputusan final jg c. Jd intinya gw masih bingung2 aja gt, hahaha :D

Recovery Time

Hai.. Senanknya akhirnya gw bs nulis blog lg ^^ gw cuti nulis bukannya gw ga pengen ato uda bosen ngeblog tp gr2 kmrn2 gw sakit jd mank bener2 ga bs nulis blog dl. Skrg gw uda 90% sembuh jdnya bs nulis lg deh! Hmm, nulis ttg apa yah? Jadi bingung bo mau nulis apa pdhal kmrn2 pas sakit bnyk hal2 yg di kepala gw yg pengen gw tuangin.. Mungqn gw bingung mau mulai dr yg mana kali yah, hehe ;p

Mending gw crita ttg sakit gw kmrn dl deh.. Gw mulai sakit pas bgt sminggu yg lalu, hr selasa pagi2 bgn tidur badan gw ga enak kaya demam gt. Anehnya pdhal tuh kmrn malemnya masih sehat2 aja gw! Masih ntn dvd, makan biasa aja, ngelakuin aktivitas shari2, pokoknya ga ada gejala mau sakit sdikitpun.. Yah tp apa blh buat, penyakit dtng begitu tiba2 spt angin yg bertiup (majas metafora, haha masih inget kan gw!)

Menderita? Ga usah diragukan lg, absolutely yes! Sial, gw ampe ga pengen nginget2 lg gmn rasanya pas sakit kmrn apalagi wkt hari2 pertama tuh.. Badan menggigil, kepala pusink, pilek, perut ga enak! Fiuh, gila.. Gw jg ga napsu makan, entah knp makanan yg gw suka pun rasanya kayanya susah bgt bwat masuknya >.< pokoknya gw makan dikit bgt ampe nyokap gw kesel qrain gw ga mau cpt sembuh ngeliat gw makan.

Slama periode sakit gw sminggu kmrn tuh, siklus kegiatan gw berputar lebih cepat krn yg gw lakuin ga bnyk, itu2 aja n berulang2 dlm 1 hari krn ga ada hal laen yg dikerjain.. Cm ada 3 komponen dsr, makan, tidur, nonton. Sempet jg tuh gw hari apa gt gw sering bgt tidurnya.. Pagi bangun, sarapan, tidur, makan siang, tidur, ntn, tdr, makan, eh trus malemnya gw jd ga bs tdr!! :( bener2 bt, uda gt gw bskannya ga tidur seharian. Mank gw malemnya bs tidur pules bgt eh tp paginya mala kepala gw sakiitt bgtt! Huh, ga ada yg bener dah kalo lg sakit pokoknya..

Tp stidaknya saat2 kritis n terburuk sdh gw lewati, skrg tinggal nyehatin badan lg nih. Untung gw pas lg libur, kalo misalnya lg kuliah bnyk tgs ato ujian mampus dah, bs stres gw! Btw gara2 sakit ini, berat gw jd turun 1 kg dlm sminggu hoho mudah2an konsisten ga naek lg hehehe ;)

I Love You, Mom!

You mean more to me than words can ever say..

Mom, thinking of you always touches my heart and never fails to bring to mind the beautiful legacy of love you’ve given to me.

You have a simple gentleness and an open generosity that are an inspiration to everyone.

It would be hard to put into words exactly how much you mean to me, but maybe you’ll understand just a little bit when I say I love you.

From your daughter..

Back 2 Work..

Long weekend’s over, ladies n gentlemen..
Now it’s time to work.
Yup2.. Gotta work, gotta work!

No wasting time.
No relax mode.
No more idle capacity.

Be creative.. Be productive..
Keep up the spirit!

He’s Just Not That Into You

Yesterday, I watched a dvd titled He’s Just Not That Into You. And I found it was a great film! ^^

It’s about a group of twenty and thirty something navigate their various relationship from the shallow end of the dating pool through the deep murky waters of married life, trying to read signs and hoping to be the exceptions to the “no exceptions” rule..

Gigi just wants a man who says he’ll call and does, while Alex advices her to stop sitting by the phone. Beth wonders if she should call it off after years of committed singlehood with her boyfriend, Neil, but he doesn’t think there’s a single thing wrong with their unmarried life. Janine’s not sure if she can trust her husband, Ben, who can’t trust himself around Anna. Anna can’t decide between the sexy married guy, or her straightforward, no spark standby, Conor, who can’t get over the fact that he can’t have her. And Mary, who’s found the entire network of loving, supportive men, just needs to find someone who’s straight.

Well, I think it’s a bit like Love Actually.. Many little stories with different players, which each of them are unique but have the same point. However, the point isn’t about “love is all around us” but it’s about the love relationship as I’ve described above.

No worries about the actors and the actress.. Coz this film presents glowing stars like Scarlett Johansson, Jennifer Aniston, Drew Barrymore, Jennifer Connelly, Ben Affleck, Justin Long, Morgan Lily, etc.. (I don’t know the rest of them) but they’re all handsome and beautiful for sure ;)

What I like about this film is it’s open my eyes about various relationship and how to deal with it. It’s also inspiring me and enlighten my mind about relationship’s meaning.. I feel there were some phases in my relationship life which is like some of the characters I mention before. Sometimes I feel like Anna or Gigi or Janine or Mary..

Then I’ve learnt that every relationship has their happiness and problem on their own. So we shouldn’t be jealous of someone else’s good looking relationship. Another thing I’ve got is in a relationship, we should put ourselves in our couple’s position.. Think about him/her as well about how’s their feeling instead of ours. And hopefully, the relationship will be happily ever after! (I love happy ending so much..)

Accidentally In Red

One of my high school friend who has a good knowledge in zodiac n know all my high school member’s birthday (still wondering how can he do that) said that scorpio (which is my zodiac) is related to red based on the personality.

Well, maybe every zodiac has its own color n my color is red.. I love red, actually. So does my scorpio friend.. Well, maybe the theory is quite true.

But for one thing, I can’t n I don’t like red! That one thing is football.. As we know (hopefully you know! I love Chelsea (The Blues) n I hate MU (Red Devils). For others, it’s ok! :)

When I bought Swica, almost one year ago, I chose red because the dealer didn’t have an ocean light blue pearl stock I adore. Then, Cést la vie (my laptop) is red as well.. And several days ago, my dad bought me a digital camera which is also red! Wow, looks like I’m a truly red lover now! Hahaha..

Siap Mati Untuk Chelsea

Hahaha.. Shock ga c pas baca judulnya?! Gw jg kaget pas baca headline di koran yg judulnya kaya gt! Ngantuk2 jd lngsng sadar deh, hehehe.. Tp pas gw baca c tnyata yah intinya berkisar perebutan juara liga inggris yg bentar lg mulai antara Chelsea n MU (spertinya MU takut ama Chelsea, hahaha!) tp bener2 dah, tuh judul bikin org ngebayangin yg bukan2 aja.. Abisnya ada kata2 siap mati, uda kaya jihad n teroris aja. Hoho, chelsea’s army! Eh tp keren jg yah ;p

Hmm.. Antusias! Munqn itu kata yg pas ngegambarin ajang liga inggris yg bkl dimulai, ga cm klub2 yg terlibat tp jg fans2nya di sluruh dunia. Tabloid2 bola isinya edisi khusus ttg premier league smua bo! Dan kbetulan kmrn gw ngebeli tabloid Soccer yg edisi premier league (yg ktnya isi lebih tebel, harga tetep) soalnya ada poster Chelsea nya! Hoho asik2, uda gw tempel tuh posternya di blkng pintu kamar gw dgn posisi eye level biar bs memandang JT dgn nyaman donk pastinya.

Entah cm perasaan gw ato mank bener, abis ko kayanya dl2 susah bgt nemuin tabloid bola yg ada bonus poster Chelsea ato headline nyebut2 Chelsea ampe sgitunya pdhal isinya ga cm Chelsea doank.. Hmm, mungqn seiring berjalannya waktu org2 pd sadar kalo Chelsea adlh klub yg patut disegani. Gw senenk skrg bnyk org yg tadinya nganggep remeh ato dulunya bilank kalo Chelsea bs sukses cm gara2 bnyk duit skrg pd mulai narik ucapan n ngubah pikiran mereka thdp klub kesayangan gw ini, the one and only! ^^

Oya, skrg pun uda terbit buku khusus Chelsea gt yg edisi Indo loh! Judulnya “The Blue Pride: Stories Behind The Team Who Makes History” 164 halaman, harganya Rp 75.000, Soccer yg nerbitin (promosi nih, syapa tau ada yg mau beliin gw).. Mantep2! Abis biasanya kalo gw liat di toko buku, buku2 gt kbanyakan MU mulu! Ampe bosen n sdikit kesal ngeliatnya, abis ga ada The Blues c >.< tp gpplah, skrg toh uda ada ini hehe. Trus jg kmrn Chelsea menank lwn MU di FA Community Shield (revenge succeed!) yg seru bgt pertandingannya n nunjukkin spirit of football yg sesungguhnya. That’s why I love dis game!

I love you, Dad!

I know you, Dad..
You don’t wear your feelings around on the outside for everyone to see.
You don’t feel you have to talk a lot to be heard..
You sometimes liketo keep things to yourself.

But you never fooled me, even once.
Even though we hardly ever talked about feelings in so many words, I always knew how much you cared.
I knew it by the million and one little things you did to let it show.
And somehow I’ve always known that beneath that tough exterior was the most special, loving, and caring father in the world.

So thanks, Dad.
For being just the way you are..
You’ll never know how much it means to have you for a father.
I love you. I always will.

From your daughter..

My Dream Future (part 2)

Stelah berkeluarga, gw pgn uda punya rumah sendiri yg bergaya minimalis.. Mungqn gw masih akan kerja tp kalo gw uda punya anak, gw akan berhenti kerja apalagi kalo kerjaan gw sifatnya full-time. Gw ga mau jd ortu yg pegi pas anak gw blum bgn n pulang pas anak gw uda tidur, gw ga mau ngorbanin keluarga gw kaya gt. Tp jujur, gw jg kayanya ga bs jd ibu rumah tangga murni yg ngurusin rumah n anak spanjang hari tanpa kegiatan laen (bnyk maunya kan gw! Hehe..) makanya gw pgn jd financial consultant ato usaha sendiri.

Knp begitu? Krn dgn jd konsultan ato usaha ndiri, waktu gw ga akan tersita bgt. Yah bs lebih fleksibel lah! Malah utk kasus t3 bs nyante kalo mank usaha itu uda jalan, tinggal dikontrol n monitor aja.. Gw mank punya cita2 utk jadi profesional di bidang finance, yah mudah2an dgn modal sertifikasi yg gw punya, pengalaman n network yg gw dpt slama gw kerja gw bs bikin kantor konsultan sendiri. Gw suka pekerjaan kaya gini krn gw bs ngebantu org sbg seorg ahli di bidang itu n bener2 mengaplikasikan apa yg gw pelajari, ga tll cape scr fisik, dicari org kalo uda terkenal n penghasilannya lumayan. Nature job nya c gw bilank ampir sama kaya dokter jg, cm masalahnya gw ga mau jd dokter gr2 berhubungan dgn tubuh manusia kaya darah, organ dalam yg ngebuat gw ga tahan pokoknya..

Kalo gw jd konsultan, gw bs nyewa kantor di gedung ato ruko deket rumah n kalo ktemu klien di t4 yg mank jd kawasan macet pun kan ga tiap hari. Jd bs dibilank gw terbebas dr rutinitas kemacetan yg skali lg sngt2 ga efisien.. Kalo gw usaha ndiri, sbenernya ada bbrp alternatif c. Bs gw mulai bikin ndiri, bantuin usaha suami kalo suami gw punya bisnis tp yg pasti akan gw lakukan walopun ga pasti kpn adlh gw akan ngelanjutin skaligus ngembangin bisnis bonyok yg jd jerih payah mereka slama ini yg mank uda jalan n menghasilkan. Cm kalo mank bonyok gw masih mampu yah gw c ga akan ngambil alih dl, dibanding mereka ga ada kesibukan yg hrs diurus kan..

Tp kalo akhirnya bisnis tsb diserahin ke gw, gw pengen ngelakuin ekspansi (sesuatu yg ga dilakuin bonyok gw slama ini) krn gw yakin dasarnya uda kuat. Gw pengen perusahaan bonyok gw jd makin sukses n jaya spy bikin mereka bangga n bahagia atas hasil kerja keras mereka.. Slaen itu, krn kata2 Pak Paul gw mau jd seorg entrepreneur dimana bisnisnya bs nyerap tenaga kerja n punya tanggung jawab sosial pd masyarakat, bangsa n negaranya. Agak idealis c, tp coba denger kuliahnya Pak Paul deh! Anak2 PM pasti ampir smuanya sdikit bnyk terpengaruhi n punya motivasi kaya gt dlm dirinya masing2..

Trus gw pengen jalan2 keliling dunia! Ngajak bonyok gw jg supaya mereka senenk.. Sbg salah satu ungkapan trima kasih gw (walopun ga akan pernah cukup) atas sgala yg mereka kasih bwat gw. Ntn Chelsea di Stamford Bridge brg Vandi (adik spupu gw yg jgngefans ama Chelsea) jg pastinya. Ntar kalo uda seandainya khidupan gw uda mapan skali, sbenernya gw punya cita2 bikin foundation.. Blum tau c dlm bentuk apa, pokoknya non-profit organization gt krn dgn berbagi dgn sesama ato berbuat amal pasti akan ngebuat hidup seseorg menjadi smakin lengkap.

Akhirnya sampe jg di penghujung mimpi, hehehe.. Itu smua cita2 yg gw impikan dlm hidup ini scr garis besar. Mank mungqn akan bnyk kendala, rintangan n hambatan dlm pelaksanaannya. Smua yg gw tulis disini mank gw pengen gw raih, gw akan berusaha utk itu. Namun gw tetep nyerahin smuanya ama Tuhan, kalo misalnya ada hal2 yg ga sesuai dgn kemauan gw yg gw tulis disini gw percaya Tuhan pasti bkl ngasih gw jalan yg terbaik mnurut Dy..

My Dream Future (part 1)

Mumpung lg liburan, gw pengen menuangkan mimpi masa depan gw dlm bentuk tulisan di blog gw ini. Gw ga tau apa ini bs disebut sbg time capsule, vision-mission ato draft rencana hidup gw dlm jangka panjang tp stidaknya gw cm pengen bs ngungkapin apa yg gw inginkan dlm hidup gw..

Well, let’s see! Skrg umur gw 20 jalan 21. Gw skrg hampir memasuki tahun trakhir gw di PM.. Yg pastinya gw hrs n akan nyelesain kuliah S1 gw tepat waktu, yaitu 4 th. Artinya September th depan gw bkl dpt gelar S.E. (walopun pengennya dibedain ama fakultas ekonomi laennya yg uda sngt pasaran krn sbenernya PM kan business school, yah gelarnya jd S.Bis gt kek biar kerenan dikit, hahaha!) n gw pengen lulus dgn predikat Cum Laude.

Nah, stlh itu gw pastinya dihadapkan dgn begitu bnyk alternatif jalan yg bs gw ambil. Mulai dr ngelanjutin S2, kerja, ambil sertifikasi, nerusin usaha ortu, ato bikin usaha ndiri (yg pasti ga ada istilah nganggur dlm kamus gw). Kalo gw pribadi, stlh lulus S1 gw pengen ngelanjutin S2 di luar.. Berusaha dptin beasiswa pastinya, krn mank biaya kuliah n hidup di luar ga murah. Makanya dr kmrn2 gw uda mulai mempersiapin, yah browsing, nanya2 org, pokoknya cari info sbnyk mungqn.. Krn ada quote bgs dr Louis Pasteur yaitu “Chance favors the prepared mind” artinya kesempatan berpihak pd org2 yg siap. Jd gw hrs nyiapin diri sedini n sebaik mungqn utk dapetin kesempatan tsb.. Gw percaya bgt ama ucapan ini, makanya gw ngelakuinnya :)

Gw blum pasti c bakal kuliah S2 di negara mana, krn tgantung jg gmn gw dpt beasiswanya n kondisi laennya yg mank ga bs ditentuin skrg. Tp gw punya bbrp alternatif teratas pilihan negara tujuan studi gw c, kaya AS, Kanada, Jepang, Inggris, Australia, hehehe walopun ga menutup kemungqnan di t4 laennya jg c.. Gw pengennya ngambil Master in Finance ato MBA, kalo bs sambil part-time work jg disana. Selaen bwat nambah2 duit utk biaya hidup, siapa tau gw jd bs punya tabungan.. Abis bbrp pengalaman org2 yg penah bljr di luar ampe bs beli mobil pas balik di Indo, hoho mantep kan! Yg pasti gw pengen bgt tinggal di luar krn pengen ngerasain sesuatu yg totally different dgn kehidupan gw yg sebelumnya, bkn berarti gw ga suka dgn kehidupan gw tp ada aja hasrat dlm diri utk ngerasain hal itu hehehe.. Lgan kpn lg?! Mumpung masih muda gt! ^^

Skitar 2 th kali yah buat S2, tmasuk ama persiapan2 sebelumnya.. Uda gt gw mau cari kerja di perusahaan yg top di Jakarta, pengennya yg berkaitan dgn finance lah sesuai dgn bidang yg gw pelajari.. Cari apartment deket tmpt kerja krn gw ga mau kaya org kerja kebanyakan yg waktunya abis di jalan, menikmati kemacetan Jakarta krn mnurut gw wasting time, energy, money n opportunity cost nya gede. Dan gw yakin pastinya bbrp th ke depan, Jakarta bakalan tambah padet n macet dimana2 apalagi jam pulang pergi kantoran..

Meniti karier bbrp tahun brusaha jd young executive, sambil ambil sertifikasi profesional keuangan mungqn Wealth Management ato Financial Planner (tp bkn Financial Analyst krn stlh gw ngikutin Index Simulation Competition gw jd yakin gw ga ngerasa cocok buat ngambil CFA-Certified Financial Analyst yg kerjanya berkaitan erat dgn saham bgt). Program sertifikasi gt wktnya lebih fleksibel c, ada yg weekend ato malem2 jg jd ga ganggu jam kerja..

Married? Pastinya! Walopun gw mementingkan kehidupan akademik n karier tp gw ga akan ngerelain suatu siklus dlm hidup terlewatkan bgitu aja.. Yap, I’ll be marry someone I love (n loves me as well) ketika gw uda mulai mapan (bgitu jg dgn calon suami gw) krn gw ga mau ngerepotin ortu lg spt contoh2 org yg sbenernya blum siap buat berkeluarga tp uda dipaksain jd ga mandiri jg scr finansial maupun kehidupan sehari2. Tp yah jgn ampe ketuaan jg c, krn gw ga pengen jarak umur gw n anak gw jd jauh, hehehe.. Kalo ngmngin wedding n honey moon kayanya bkl panjang bgt kalo gw tulis disini krn bnyk detailnya. Skip aja deh krn ini kan rencana jangka panjang jdnya ga mungqn tll detil jg haha, lgan gw uda pernah nulis jg deh ttg my wedding dream di post gw terdahulu ;)

(to be continued)

Jadi Dosen?!

Suatu sore di mobil dlm perjalanan pulang dr kampus..

Bokap gw: Papa tau kerjaan apa yg enak bwat km..
Gw: Oya, apa pa?
Bokap gw: Mending km jd dosen aja, sambil skalian dagang.
Gw: ... (shock)
Bokap gw: Enak krn dosen kan wktnya lebih fleksibel.. Kerjanya cm wkt ngajar, ga hrs kaya org kerja di kantoran hrs pegi pagi pulang malem. Jd km bs ngurusin dagang jg, uda gt dihormatin lg ama mahasiswa..
Gw: ... (masih shock)
Bokap gw: Bla.. Bla.. Bla.. (masih ngmng2 cm gw lupa dy ngmng apa krn gw ga merhatiin lg)

Malam harinya saat makan malem..

Bokap gw: Coba tanya mama deh, gmn kalo km jd dosen. Bla.. Bla.. Bla..
Nyokap gw: Iya tuh, bgs jg! Mama stuju. Bla.. Bla.. Bla..
Gw: ... (shock lg)
Suara hati gw: Si mama jg stuju?!
Gw: Tp aku ga pernah kepikiran jd dosen.. Lgan kayanya ga berbakat jg bwat ngajar org, hehehe.
Nyokap gw: Ah, ga jg ko.. Kalo mama perhatiin km bs ngajarin org. Buktinya tmn2 km yg diajarin ama km pd ngerti kan?
Gw: Yah.. Itu kan skala kecil doank, dosen kan ngajarinnya bnyk.
Nyokap gw: Kan bertahap.. Dr ngajarin tmn2, jd tutor, ntar lama2 jg bs..
Suara hati gw: Bs c mungqn bs, tp gw ga pengen jd dosen yg bagi mahasiswa dosen yg cm skedar dosen.. Tp kalo mau jd kaya Pak Paul? Huahh, susahhh! >.<
Bokap gw: Gaji dosen jg lumayan.. Trus yg lebih penting km bs ga tll cape kaya kbnykan org kerja kantoran yg wktnya abis di jalan. Wkt luangnya km bs sambil dagang, bwat penghasilan tambahan.. Tp kalo dagang lg sepi, stidaknya kan ada penghasilan tetap dr jd dosen.
Gw: Hmm...
Bokap gw: Yah tp itu smua c tsr keputusan km.. Papa cm ngasih saran n masukan doank, kalo mnurut papa jalan ini bagus. Km timbang2 aja sendiri, papa ga maksa loh..
Gw: ... (tersenyum tanpa tau mau mau ngomong apa)

MMS V of V

Sunshine After The Rain
By: Alexander Klaws

Woke up this morning
Another brand new start
That's our life
I jumped with every beat of my heart

When you came over
I could see something was wrong
It really isn't worth that you
Just get to keep moving alone

You know that I always be there

I'll be your sunshine after the rain
When the sky is turning grey
You know that I'm never far away
Sunshine after the rain
Together 'til the end
Whenever you're in need of a friend
Or a shoulder to cry on
Someone there to rely on
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
It's the one thing I won't change

We know each other
Since I don't know how long
As long as I remember
You were always there
Singing along

There have been some good times
And it's even been some sad
But we always somehow managed
To get something good
Out of the bad

Remember I'll always be there

I'll be your sunshine after the rain
When the sky is turning grey
You know that I'm never far away
Sunshine after the rain
Together 'til the end
Whenever you're in need of a friend
Or a shoulder to cry on
Someone there to rely on
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
It's the one thing I won't change

Some say that friends
Will come and go
But this thing we have
Will always grow
It's this one of these things you know

I'll be your sunshine after the rain
When the sky is turning grey
You know that I'm never far away
Sunshine after the rain
Together 'til the end
Whenever you're in need of a friend
Or a shoulder to cry on
Someone there to rely on
I'll be your sunshine after the rain
It's the one thing I won't change

Curi2 Dengar

Haha.. Skrg gw tau gmn rasanya jd ortu! Eh tp jgn diqra gw uda punya anak loh, maxud gw utk suatu hal tertentu yg sngt spesifik. Well, perasaan itu muncul tiba2 saat gw pergi ke rumah salah 1 temen bokap gw.. Dy punya anak ce yg scr umur jauh lebih kecil dibanding gw tp ga gt c secara fisik abisnya dy tinggi bgt! >.<

Krn bokap gw n tmnnya itu uda kenal cukup lama jd sering jg gw maen ke rumahnya n nyaksiin tuh anak tumbuh dr kecil ampe skrg SMP. Nah, suatu hari tuh gw maen ke rumahnya brg bokap.. Ngeliat dy lg ngobrol di teras depan ama co seumurannya yg tampangnya masih polos n culun gt deh, kayanya c tetangga ato tmn skolah. Trus gw kan ngbrl ama nyokapnya di ruang tamu yg letaknya cm sebelahan ama teras .. Tp entah knp gw berusaha utk curi2 dengar, yah mank kedengeran dr ruang tamu cm gw tetep hrs berkonsentrasi antara pembicaraan dgn si tante n pembicaraan kedua anak SMP di belakang gw.

Gw tau c rasanya mank ga etis, cm gw jg ga tau ko ada perasaan khawatir. Hmm, aneh mank! Hey, mereka cm ngbrl doank gt.. Dan yg diomongin pun paling ngebahas ttg ketua kelas-lah, ekskul padus n smacem2nya. Eh, tp tuh co sempet nanyain no hp nya jg c! Yah P.D.K.T. kayanya.. Fiuh, tau dah perasaan gw aneh aja. Mungqn gw uda nganggep dy sbg adek gw, jd agak gmn yah? Hmm, kesannya agak protektif jg c. Takut org yg qta sayang knp2.. Pdhal sbenernya kayanya agak ga masuk akal jg! Soalnya kalo gw di posisi dy pasti ga suka deh digituin, jd serba salah.

Tp gw sempet merhatiin jg, kayanya nyokapnya pun sdikit bnyk ikut denger2in c. Hehe, mungqn mank uda alamiahnya bgitu kali yah.. Pokoknya skrg gw agak lebih ngertilah gmn rasanya jd ortu kalo anaknya lg di-PDKT-in. Haha, bonyok gw gmn yah? Kayanya bokap gw lebih cuek dah, nyokap gw tuh yg lebih “concern” ama hal2 yg berhubungan dgn gt2an hehehe..

MMS IV of V

Right Here Waiting
By: Richard Marx

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

MMS III of V

Tong Hua (Fairy Tale)
By: Michael Guang Liang

Wang le you duo jiu
Zai mei ting dao ni
Dui wo shuo ni
Zui ai de gu shi

Wo xiang le hen jiu
Wo kai shi huang le
Shi bu shi wo you
Zuo cuo le shen me

Ni ku zhe dui wo shuo
Tong hua li duo shi pian ren de
Wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
Ye xu ni bu hui dong
Cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
Wo de tian kong
Xing xing dou liang le

Wo yuan bian cheng
Tong hua li
Ni ai de na ge tian shi
Zhang kai shuang shou
Bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
Ni yao xiang xin
Xiang xin wo men
Hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
Xing fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Wo yao bian cheng
Tong hua li
Ni ai de na ge tian shi
Zhang kai shuang shou
Bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
Ni yao xiang xin
Xiang xin wo men
Hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
Xing fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Wo hui bian cheng
Tong hua li
Ni ai de na ge tian shi
Zhang kai shuang shou
Bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
Ni yao xiang xin
Xiang xin wo menHui xiang tong hua gu shi li
Xing fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Yi qi xie wo men de jie ju

All You Can Wait!

It was half past two in the afternoon, the sun was shining bright and my head was very heavy coz I felt so damn sleepy.. Then my mom asked me to accompany her making payment of PDAM bill in Bumiputera Bank.

Actually my mom has already got queue number, # 129 in the morning hoping that when we got back there we won’t wait too long. But unfortunately, the current number was #140 something.. Damn! So we missed it >.< then the security gave us the new queue number which was # 20. Fyi, the maximum number was 151 so in total we should wait about 30 more person!

Fiuh.. We went around and around (well, minimizing the waiting time) but we still wait about an hour before we got our turn. Boring? Of course! Actually I wanted to complaint about the bank’s service (only 1 teller who serves both payment n the bank’s deposits with crowded of customer wait n queue?) but the teller said my t-shirt was cute so I didn’t do that. Hahaha, how weak I am! ;p

The weather was extremely hot when we left, so I bought some ice candles (what is “es lilin” in English?) n my mom bought some cakes and food for dinner otw home, hehehe..

Mafia’s World

Td gw ntn Public Enemies, keren!! Crita mafia gt deh, gw suka.. ^^ Jd ni film nyeritain ttg perampok bank legendaris di AS era 1930-an, namanya John Dillinger (diperanin ama Johnny Depp). Walopun ngerampok bank adlh tindakan kriminal tp si Dillinger ini ga ngelukai ato ngerampok warga sipil gt.. Justru dy dianggep kaya pahlawan ama masyarakat soalnya wkt zaman great depression AS, bank2 dianggep institusi yg ngerampok uang rakyat n ngebuat mereka miskin. Jd kaya Robin Hood zaman agak modernlah! Bahkan ada adegan dimana seorg ibu ampe pengen gabung jd anggotanya Dillinger gt, haha cm ditolak c..

Film ini ga nampilin tipe film mafia yg kejam, sadis (gw ga suka bgt) n tanpa sisi kemanusiaannya diangkat. Di Public Enemies, si Dillinger dikejar ama agen FBI muda, Melvin Purvis (diperanin ama Christian Bale) n gw mank sk aksi kejar2an gt yg ga cm ngandalin fisik tp jg otak krn adu pinter gt deh kaya film Catch Me If You Can (keren abis!) Tp ga cm gt2 aja krn sdikit bnyk diceritain jg ttg kehidupan sang kriminal paling dicari di AS itu.. Diliatin jg sisi kesetiaan ama tmn2nya yg bgitu besar n well, trutama c ttg kisah cintanya dgn Billie Frechete. Unik loh tp, gmn yah beda aja gt ga kaya org biasa2. Hehehe, gmn yah kalo jd si Billie? Falling in love with the bad guy, hmm.. (dreaming mode: on) hehehe ;p

Actionnya mnurut gw jg ok. Pas ngelolosin diri dr penjara, ngerampok bank, dikepung, ngelariin diri.. Seru pokoknya, jd ga ngebosenin hehehe! Dan pastinya two thumbs up 4 Johnny Depp.. Entah sesuai ato ga dy ama karakter John Dillinger (krn gw ga tau aslinya dy gmn ye..) tp mnurut gw jadinya keren bgt!! Gila.. Ekspresi, gaya bhs, mimik, tingkah laku, kata2 n yg ga akan terlupakan adlh sorot matanya, kayanya tuh nimbulin aura yg gmn gt (tp entah knp gw jd ngebandingin mulu ama pas dy maen di Pirates of Carribean, hahaha..)

Scene paling gokil mnurut gw tuh pas dy ngedatengin ndiri kantor polisi Chicago n bahkan masuk ke ruangan yg di pintunya pun ditulis bagian yg ngejar dy, can u believe it?! Cari mati mank! Tp kocaknya, tuh ruangan lg kosong soalnya lg pada keluar smua, lg nyiapin operasi lapangan bwat nangkep dy. Trus dy dgn santenya bs kliling2 bahkan nanya score pertandingan baseball ama polisi2 yg ngumpul di kantin ntn pertandingan gt.. Dan gw sukaa bgt ekspresi John Dillinger pas berhasil kabur ama ce nya n pas ce nya ditangkep. Dua hal yg saling bertentangan, yg 1 ketawa bahagia campur puas, yg 1 sedih bgt nahan tangis.. Dua2nya keren bgt n ngelekat bgt di pikiran gw, mantep2!

Lmyn lama jg filmnya c ampir 3 jeman gt kayanya, tp gw ga bosen! Malah pengen lanjut trus, hehehe.. Cm sayang beribu sayang, endingnya ko sedih yah? Rada2 mengenaskan, soalnya dy dikhianati ama org yg dkt ama dy. Sdih jadinya.. Pdhal gw pengennya tokoh dy lanjut trus, yah maxudnya idup n happily ever after gt (hahaha kaya fairy tale bgt yah). Soalnya gw ga ngerasa sama skali si Dillinger itu sbg antagonis walopun mank dy yg jahat n agen Purvis (walopun Christian Bale ganteng yg maen) yg negakin kebenaran.. Ga nyesel gw ntnnya, bikin gw lebih tau ttg dunia mafia yg sbenernya ga melulu diisii dgn kejahatan n gw senenk bs kenal dgn seorg tokoh dunia mafia, John Dillinger. Sst, you’re the man! ;)

MMS II of V

I Want To Spend My Lifetime Loving You
(OST Zorro)
By: Tina Arena & Marc Anthony

Moon so bright, night so fine
Keep your heart here with mine
Life's a dream we are dreaming

Race the moon, catch the wind
Ride the night to the end
Seize the day, stand up for the light

I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do

Heroes rise, heroes fall
Rise again, win it all
In your heart, can’t you feel the glory

Through our joy, through our pain
We can move worlds again
Take my hand, dance with me

I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do
I will want nothing else to see me through
If I can spend my lifetime loving you

Though we know we will never come again
Where there is love, life begins
Over and over again

Save the night, save the day
Save the love, come what may
Love is worth everything we pay

I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do

I want to spend my lifetime loving you
If that is all in life I ever do
I will want nothing else to see me through
If I can spend my lifetime loving you

I’m So Exhausted

Huh.. Rasanya stngh hr ini gw brasa capee bgt! Pdhal sbenernya ga bnyk jg yg gw lakuin well tp mank cukup bnyk c yg terjadi pd gw.. Td malem gw ga bs tidur, uda bolak balik entah brp puluh kali tp pikiran2 di kepala gw ga mau pegi2. Kayanya br jem 2 ato 3an gt gw br bs tidur, itu jg ga nyenyak krn bentar2 kebangun >.< ahh, really hate that!

Pagi2nya gw kesel n jd bt gr2 seseorg yg kayanya ga mau peduli n ngegampangin sesuatu mulu.. Trus gw pegi ke rumah sdr gw, jem 11an gw mkn soto Bandung di Dapur Sunda yg bagi gw mahal doank tp ga enak. Oya, perut gw pun sakit gr2 lg dapet.. Trus entah dr mana (plis gw ga tau lg sbenernya gw alergi ama apaan!) tiba2 gw pun pilek gt aja pas di rmh sdr gw, damn!

Di mobil gw uda lemes aja pas pulang, mampir ke t4 toko furniture tp gw ga niat turun. Sbelum balik mkn dl di Sederhana Bintaro, tp gw bnr2 ga napsu mkn pdhal uda lama gw ga mkn padang.. Akhirnya gw cm minum jus alpukat n ngeliatin org2 dpn gw mkn dgn lahapnya.

Pulang2 gw minum obat flu (untungnya skrg uda baek, mank pilek yg aneh..) n ngelakuin ritual2 yg biasa gw lakuin kalo pulang dr mana2. Disuruh nykp istirahat tp males jdnya gw ol n curhat di post ini deh, fiuh..

Mioul

Karena gw ga pernah ngendarain sepeda motor sbelumnya (yah dibonceng c pernah) jadi td adalah pertama kalinya gw nyoba ngendarain sepeda motor, yaitu Yamaha Mio Soul yg br dibeli bokap gw atas nama gw (walopun kayanya bkn diperuntukkan bwat gw jg, buset mau ke kmps gw naek itu?! Jauh aje! Hmm.. Kcuali kalo ada motor way di tol deh, masih mikir2 lg gw tp toh pasti gw uda kburu lulus dlan kalo dibikin jg jd ga akan ada kmungkinan utk itulah intinya).

Well, gw jd inget zaman2 gw bljr sepeda dl haha! Nyoba beradaptasi dgn sesuatu yg baru, tau fungsi n cara bwnya.. Tp secara tuh motor automatic yah, jd gampang n simple kaya naek sepeda cm bedanya bodinya lebih gemuk n berisi (ga kaya sepeda yg kurus kerempeng, hehehe..) n energinya berasal dr mesin bkn kayuhan kaki.

Walopun gt tetep aja pas pertama kali “meluncur”masih oleng2 gt, kiri kanan tp ga ampe jatoh lah hehehe.. Trus muter balik ko ribet yah, soalnya gw tuh masih memperlakukannya kaya bw sepeda jd yah bgitulah ;p hehe tp yah lumayan lah asik jg bwat ke t4 yg deket2 bs nyante gt, hohoho.. Go Mioul!